Mao

I never thought that this day would come, I thought things like this will only happen in drama series. I never thought that I will feel this way, as I thought I wont be feeling anything like this.

I am really sorry, for all the things I've done for the past few immature years of mine. All the scoldings, all the disrespectful acts, all the quarrels, all the cold wars. You will still treat me with the same way as you used to after I've done wrong every time, and you'd still care for me with your never ending love despite the fact that I didn't care for you the same way you cared for me. I wish you know how sorry I really am, and I wish you know I really love you.

I lost one during valentine's day last year, and I don't wanna lose you again. Why does the big C wanna take you away from me?

The big C...

The big C always tags along the big D, and it is the big D that hurts the most.

Mao

After staying up the whole night, so many hours staring at the comp, squeezing all my brain juice out and 2 rounds of DotA in between, and now I've finally done with my project. I have to admit that this shit project is indeed a pain in the arse, the more reason I hate insurance.

And now, I would like to announce that, I a-m o-f-f-c-i-a-l-l-y f-r-e-e f-r-o-m a t-h-i-n-g c-a-l-l-e-d S-T-R-E-S-S ! Oh boy, I'm driving myself up the wall, its time to catch a few episodes of my fav series before i rest myself =)

Mao

I am so doomed. I need to hand up my project tomorrow but I haven't even start on it, coz I have no idea what and how to do! Why oh why is this happening? Why is it so hard to even write the introduction? Why is it so hard to structure my sentence? Why this and why that? Why why why? Dim Gai ? Dim Gai ?!!!

Argh, I wanna getaway!

Mao

Just finished my exam today, and I think getting a P *hopefully* wont be a problem for me. I didnt do 3 questions at section A with 6 marks each, so there goes my 18 marks, but I think I did moderately in section B, at least not too bad =P And since the exam is over now, it also means that its time to:

1. Get myself a hair cut.
2. Work on my 3k words project which gonna due on Monday.
3. Time for youtube series.
4. Get back the feel of playing pool.
5. Get back the feel of playing DotA.
6. Get a job.
   

Yesh, I've lost my touch on pool, since few weeks ago. I became so noob til I cant even strike any balls in a straight line. Just came back from yc session with Justin and Mon just now. We went to play a few rounds of pool after we had our drinks at Stevens. Somehow we turned up to be a little more crazy tonight, laughed ourselves out with some crazy and noob things while pooling, but then it was fun, thanks guys for tonight =D

Oh yeah, I have a 31 seconds video clip of Mon while we were yc-ing just now. It'll be useful somehow someday, lol.

Mao

It's just a few hours away, and yet I'm still here blogging, argh ! I just reached home from McD again after I drove to a few housing area near my place to look for other peoples' kelisa/kancil that has the same rim cover as mine so that I can steal them. But fortunately, I found none =( , else I gonna feel guilty for doing so.

Yeah, I know I shouldn't do things like this, but the stupid idea came to me after I studied for 6 hours straight under the condition of stress and desperation. I'd better go get some rest and revise for the final time before I going to my institute later around 1pm. Thanks to those who wished me luck, I think I'll need all of'em. Best of luck in your tests too =D

And last but not least, Happy Burfday to Rhys ! I don't think you'll ever come across this entry as I know you don't read blogs anymore, nonetheless all the best in.. .. .. .. all the things you do, lolz. I cant think of any nice things to say already, coz I'm feeling friggin stone now, the more reasons I hate exam, pfft !

Mao

I'm suffering from a bad headache, it feels like something is blocking the blood from flowing inside, argh! I don't think I gonna have enough time for my revision, but I need some rest due to the headache, and this feels so sick. Its now less than a day til my finals, blessed it be.


McD has been a good friend of mine for the past few nights, thanks McD =P

New blog template

Was thinking of the new blog address, then suddenly thought of surfing some blog templates, and that leads to the idea of downloading one and start changing into that new template. I left 1.5 days to study and I shouldn't be doing things like these now, but I have no idea why I did.

Took me like 1++ hour to finish the whole new template coz of those html codes, but it justs look so-so. I gonna find another prettier template after my exam. I better go shower and go McD after that for my revision.

Sigh, =/

Mao

I've changed my blog address and made my blog open up to public again.

Yeah, I know the new blog address somehow sounds a little lame, =/ but thats the best that I can come up with within few minutes of thinking just now. I'll think of some better blog address after my exam kays =P, til then lets just stick to this one.

The good thing is, I don't think the troll will be coming anytime soon. The bad thing is, I don't know whether should I inform others, as in those friends that know us (the troll and me) in person, about the changes of the blog address, coz I know they'll edit the link at each of their respective blogs, and if the troll noticed my new blog address, it will go back to square one.

See how it goes lo later.

Mao

Seriously I think I've screwed up biological clock. I woke up when majority of everyone gonna start to get some sleep, and I only started to get some rest when majority of everyone just woke up. And I only get to have, like 2 meals per day?

I only able to have my "breakfast" around 2pm and I'll get some rest during the evening coz I'd know that I'll have to stay up the whole night to do revision, and due to that, I'll prolly skipped my dinner when I woke up, so I'll only able to have my "dinch" when everyone started sleeping.

My lifestyle is like being "zombified". But I know I considered slightly better than those who's having coll classes everyday, maybe I should be grateful in a way. And I would like to wish everyone all the best in their tests and exams.

*I dont wanna fail any subject anymore, sigh..*

Mao

Yesh, went to McD and had my revision there as stated at the previous entry. I thought I was a weirdo who decided to do my revision or study at McD during midnight, but when I reached there, I was kinda shocked, coz it was totally different, lol

I saw some of them even brought along their laptop here, I guess I'm somehow normal, hehe =D I've snapped a few pics there =)


The girl brought along her lappie, while her friend posing his fingers when he's figuring out a solution for the question he's doing.


She was enjoying her cup of hot coffee while her friend having her study break. Somehow I noticed that the McD statue's butt is kinda way too big, and I don't know why its there when I snapped the pic.

Those 4 peeps are already there when I reached McD, but this couple below came around 3.45am, weirdo couple =P


I feel that I'm like those stalker who keep snapping pictures here and there secretly, zzZ.. Nonetheless, it was fun last night, excluding the bunch of M's keep singing their M song loudly at the cashier/order area there. Should I go there and do my revision again tonight? Lolz

=)

Mao

I think I've screwed up my biological clock inside me. I skipped my dinner due to I overnap again and there ain't much food left on the table. And while I was stoning over the question where should I have my supper later, I found a brilliant idea !

I should have my supper at McD later since its now operating 24/7 everyday. Then I can take my jacket and notes along and do my revision there too. And maybe around 4am, I can have a cup of hot coffee with free refills ! Oh this idea is so oh great =)

Dont mind me honestly, I started to become insane and came out with all these crazy ideas.

Argh!

Mao

I noticed that I only able to really concentrate and study during the night time but not day time, I don't know why. But even so, I know I wont be able to concentrate if there's a mirror found anywhere near me, coz I'll be looking at it every 5 minutes.

Nescafe is indeed very effective, it kept me awake since last night til now. And now I'm wondering should I go "nap" now coz I did not "nap" (invented by Nbs) last night or should I continue study since I still able to stay awake?

Hmm..

Mao

It cheered me up when Dave told me that he's coming to KL soon. I miss that fella so much =) He also told me that he's now into some plans and asked me whether do I have interest in joining or not, and after he told me about his plans, it sounds so good and I said yes. But its quite costly though, it seems that interests will always on top of money, at least it is that way to me. Well, hope it'll turn out fine.

And this guy is too shy to let people know who he is, but I'm pretty sure most of you all know who he is =)


And the picture below is how it looks like whenever the sky is raining while I'm on my way to my institute for class. You saw the jam? Marvelous ain't it ?

Thats all for now.

Mao

7 days left to cover 8 topics that consist of 34 possible potential areas.

Will it be too little too late ? Blessed it be.

Mao

Let's talk about randomness.

I'd say having at least a random dream every single night since 2 weeks ago until now would be the beginning of this random frenzy. Randomness strikes randomly as you'll never know when you'll get hit by it. Randomness would be the son of a single father named Stone, in other words, randomness is the effect of being stoned.

Randomness has its benefits too. Sometimes, it ables you to see the bigger picture of that particular situation. Sometimes, it helps you realize what you really want. Sometimes, it helps you to realize what is important and what is not. Sometimes, it even helps you to understand things better.

Now, let's talk about timing.

Timing would be a daughter of a single mother named fate, as timing always come after fate, and not before. Without fate, there would be no timing, but this doesn't work in the family of randomness and stone, as you'll still get hit by randomness even if you're not stoned. Timing exists to only help you realize that you're fated to do something, to being that someone yourself, or to be with someone. Stone exists to only give chance for randomness to strikes.

I believe after all the 22 years of my life, I got to know a little more deeper and understood a little more clearer about their each respective roles in our lives. They need each other as much as we need friends and family in our lives now.

What a random entry.

Mao

9 days til finals, excluding test2 and the project, with 8 topics to cover. I have no idea how to start my project, not to even mention that I have to end it with at least 3k words. And I failed my CGI, damn.. But then again, it is somehow semi-expected. I wont fail this Marketing anymore, not that I failed it before, pfft !

After this Marketing, somehow I managed to found out that I gonna have a month's time of holidays until I start my next subject. What am I going to do in this one month period?

Stone and rot at home !

Mao

Works are piling up, and I think I'll need to at least clear some of them during the weekend, and test2 is coming up on Wednesday too. =/

I found a spell to become smart:

"Spirits send the words, from all across the land
Allow me to absorb them, through the touch of either hand
For 24 hours from 7 to 7,
I will understand all meaning of the words from here to heaven."

Mao

Everyone leaves, they always do.

Mao

Speaking of dreams during the previous entry, as expected I dreamt about something again last night, or rather this morning. Its a bit complicated, or rather special, and because of this, I find its quite interesting after all. The dream involves all the things that I been thinking too much during the day time, and somehow unconsciously, it seems that I able to think about it more deeply during my dreams.

Have anyone of you ever experience anything like this before? Have I ever told some of you guys that you have the power to actually create your own dream? And also the power to continue dreaming the same thing when you fall back asleep after you woke up? I know I definitely told some of you guys about it before. Yesh, I've done it again last night, unconsciously created the dream according to the way I want it to be, and somehow able to continue dreaming about it when I fall back asleep after I woke up. Strange isn't it? Well, you may say that I'm a weirdo, or even a sick person, but it did happened to me for more than once.

And because of this, the dream was somehow sweet and saddening. I wanted to dream more about it, but the sound of the cellphone's alarm stopped me. =/

For those who been reading my blog, I just wanted to say that Im sorry if I offended anyone of you in any way, and also for all the wrongdoings I've done. I been emo-ing lately and I know I kinda accidentally blown it out on you, Im sorry.

Mao

I know I have to blog something, but I don't know what should I type.

I've watched a very very very touching romance movie today, as in few hours back. "A walk to remember" made me cry, a lot. The story is seriously so touching that I couldn't even stop myself from crying. I can say that its one of the best movie I've watched. Believe me, it is definitely worth watching. And through that movie, I learnt a few stuffs, understood some stuffs, and reminded me some stuffs. Somehow, my emotions became complicated after that, Lolz. Oh, and not to forget, the OSTs of the movie are so great that I wont be bored listening to them the whole day. I'll watch it again when I need to do some crying, sue me for being a crying baby =D

Again, I been procrastinating my assignments ! Yesh, assignments, its more than one now, not to even mention my final project paper which needs more than 3k words, gg me. I hope I have an assistant who willing to help me, but sadly I know the day aint gonna come, silly me.

I been dreaming rapidly lately, and I don't know why and what's the reason behind all these dreams, coz they're all so random. I thought I can finally have some good sleeps these days after the previous insomnia, but I guess it keeps haunting me. Just imagine, a night of sleep with at least 4 different dreams in between, oh gawd !

Now its almost 4 in the morning, and I'll have to wake up at 830 tomorrow for ? Everybody knows, for driving =) Alright, I started to lose my sense on what I'm talking, I think its time for me to pay the dreamland a visit, again. =/

Mao

I think everyone should know that I've set my blog back to private already as you entering my blog just now. Seems like that troll is back, and so I have to set it back to private.

Sorry for all the trouble I've caused.

And I know I shouldn't be blogging when I'm emo, so I'll post a new entry after I feel better.

Mao

Served me right for playing hellgate in the morning and been sleeping for few hours during the noon. Ended up I only able to rush through my notes 5 minutes before the test starts. But nonetheless, its still a "open-book" test with the acknowledgment of all the "potential" questions that gonna come out beforehand, and we're only allowed to open our books and refer for the first half an hour.

By the time I have to close my book, I finished 8 questions out of 10 by referring to the book already. There goes the test. And now, I have to do my assignment which I don't feel like doing. My car is covered with more than 8 bird shits all over, I have no idea where did my dad parked my car when he was using it, grr.

I miss skating on the ice and also poking balls on the pool table. Hehe =)