To ... <3

When the blue night is over my face,
On the dark side of the world in space,
When I'm all alone with the stars above,
You are the one I love.

Even if you want to go alone,
I will be waiting when you're coming home,
If you need someone to ease the pain,
You can lean on me ; my love will still remain.

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You might see this and you might not, but it doesnt really matters much for now.

I know its been hard for you recently, somehow I just want to let you know that I'll be there for you, as always.

Aaahhhhh

Ouch , my head hurts.. ><"

Been rushing assignment since I came back from the YC session with Rick and K at 2am, then do til 930am just now. Got really tired and wanted to take a short break and rest a while, but ended up sleeping til 1130am >"< And I have those weird dreams.. Lolz !

I still have lots of work to do, not sure whether do I have enough time or not, but I do think I have =D Gonna go back to assignment soon..

16 more days to suffer and thats it !

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I Found You

Assignments ?!!

Yea, assignment ?!!

I friggin hate assignment, but then who doesnt? Lolz.. Aihz, I have to rush another assignment *which I have no idea how to start and complete it* during this weekend =\ Time is running out, and I only have 17 days left til my finals. I finally came to realized that I should really seriously concentrate on my studies now, 17 days is just another 2 weeks and 3 days more.. I dont wanna fail my subject and retake again, it is pure wasting money and time ><

And, Thanks hikki, for everything =) Although you might not be reading this, but then Im really grateful for everything you told me, as you talked me through things that made me jiwangz. I'll keep in mind about what you've told me =D So I shall jiwangz no more !! Whee ~~ Congratz Nonnie for passing her final driving test, dont forget to pick me up for a round or two in your car next time =P

Finally got back the unser just now. It looks kind of brand new tho, I mean the back part of the car of course =) Guess I'll be doing assignment through the weekend, but it doesnt mean that I cant go out for an outing or two. If you guys have anything in mind, just inform me, and I'll consider whether am I going or not, do not take me for granted that I wont be joining and decided not to ask me, Grrr >"<

I guess thats about it, til the next entry guys. Adios ~

Happie =)

It is pleased to know that it has finally been paid out after all the hard work that you done, be it your education life, your career life or even your relationship life :)

Yes, when I went to class last night, the first sentence after I entered the classroom was :
"Eh Lucas, the result for MBP out already !" ,
instead of
"Eh Lucas, where have you been? You didnt come to class for so long already.."

I was scared and excited at the same time. Later on, I rushed to the 1st floor and got my result from Putri. Well, it turns out well, at least it I've done my best =D

Honestly, it is not easy to study back after a 2 years break, it surely aint. And its not even easy as well, for a non potential student in studies to get a good result. MBP wasnt the subject that Im worrying, in fact Law is .. Speaking of Law, I think I gonna ggfied soon. Done assignment 1 and only get to know that I do not have to hand up yet after that. Will receive 2nd and 3rd assignment in 1 shot, will have to sit for at least 1 more test before finals, and I only have 21 more days til my finals, then followed by 2 weeks of holidays.

My next semester gonna start at .. the 3rd of December, and this time it is changed to every Monday and Wednesday, instead of Tuesday and Thursday. The new subject called "An Introduction To Commercial General Insurance". When we got the schedule for our 3rd Sem, all my classmates claimed that the lady lecturer who gonna teach us is very good in what she's teaching, and will most likely to get another distinction, so I wont be worrying much for next subject. My exam day for the 3rd subject will fall on the 12 of February 2008, which I think it is somewhere near CNY, it also means that I wont be able to fully have fun during CNY T_T

Oh well, screw education, I aint those potential study type student afterall =D Been planning a small trip at December with the girls and K last week. So far, we planned to go to Cameron (if can) during December time. Well, to me its at least something fresh, instead of keep going to Genting, or Redang, or Pangkor, or Langkawi, or Melaka.. But then the plan is still in discussion, as some did not make it to turn up during the discussion. Looking forward to this small trip to relax myself =) Hope it wont crash with my classes then, else I might actually think of skipping few class for the trip, we'll see how it goes then.. XD

I guess thats all for now, I'll end this entry with one small question.

Anyone here hates shyness ?

Countdown

CountDown : 23 days til my finals.

Somehow I dont really feel panic yet. I havent started doing my assignment 1 and there will be 2 more tests and 1 more assignment that I need to do before I gonna sit for my finals. I can predict that all things gonna cramp in these 23 days.

Wish me luck =) Good luck to those who gonna sit for SPM as well :)

Okay, is time to start assignment 1.

Adios peeps.

Everything happens for a reason.

I came across a short but very meaningful comic, just feel like sharing with you all. All pictures CnP from a random blogger, credits to him.

*Everything happens for a reason*

Depressed

Is just you and me now, in this lonesome night. It has been like this since the past, it is still now, and it will still be like this in the next upcoming months.

I just wondering, what did I done wrong in the past to deserve shits that Im now going through? My life is so pathetic. I have a bunch of Buddiez that dont really understands me, dont really know that Im depressed lately, and dont really even care to cheer me up by asking me what happened..

Sometimes it just takes a small step to make a person feel happy again, it might be a temporary happiness, but still, all a person needs is comforts from friends and family, or maybe even from their partner, if they have any. Besides, is it really so hard to find someone that you're able to share your thoughts with?

Sometimes is not that I dont wanna share my probs and thoughts with friends, just that they have their own stuffs to worry about, and I dont wanna discourage them, or in any other ways. That is why sometimes I rather eMo alone and dont feel like going anywhere.

I just want to conclude this entry with one pic. =>

A lil about myself .

Name: Whitey
Date: 10/19/2007
Colorgenics Number: 24513607

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You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

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Maybe this is the thing that I been waiting for, to tell me what I really feel inside, thanks Shannon =)

Readers can try it out from http://goldinuniverse.com

Enjoy guys.

What a night =D

Yeap, it is hell of a great night ! Lets start sharing all the highlights =P

Went out at 2pm and fetch my grand to do her physiotherapy, then reach back home at 430, chilled around, and started the journey of the beautiful night at 5pm, hehe XD Reached there around 6 ++ and we started to set up the fire shortly after that. Then those who have cars will help to fetch others from the station to the playground and also buy some last minute goodies.

After they start up the fire and all, the real party begins at 730 ! The very first moment when I wanna enjoy my meal, something bad happened ! The sauce of the spaghetti accidentally fall on my white shirt! Argh, what a sign, lolz .. I knew there will be some alcoholic drinks appear in the party, coz I myself asked Jedrik to bring some XO for me, Rofl ~

I ate damn little, and moreover I din eat anything the whole day before I go to the party as well, so basically its like Im filling up myself with gas from alcoholic drinks >< And end up i got drunk after I drank the XO which Jedrik brought =\ We decided to throw Jedrik into the pool but we didnt, instead Justin palled a pail of ice water on him, from head to toe, GG ! Then after the cake session, we decided to go for usual hang out activity, yeah, which is pool !

And while playing pool, I seems to be able to get hold of myself again from being drunk. After few rounds of pool, then we decided to call it a night, and after sending JoeKeen back, I decided to drive back to PJ instead of staying overnight at PI. But then, I kena road block ! Omg, ggfied ~ They done the alcohol testing on me and I kena , gg.. Then end up I rasuah the officer and turn back to David house to stay overnight there. I couldnt afford to bump into another road block again on my way home =\

They were playing PS2 and I were using Vid's comp to online the whole night til morning =) Finally went to bed at 7am and slept til 11 ++, but then I couldnt sleep well , not because of anything else, but my stomach is hurting me coz of all the gas in it >< We then went for our brunch at a mamak store nearby Vid's house, and I reached PJ at 130pm after fetching everyone home =D

Yeah, I would like to thank Vid and Jedrik, =P and sorry to Justin and Sam, for you guys know why =\ Thats more or less the summary of the party last night, well, at least I know everyone had fun XD

Last but not least, I hope you like your prezzie David =)

Hpy Burfday =)

Yeah, as the title of this entry stated, Happy Birthday David ! Its now 132 am, and it has been an unpleasant night =\ Anyway, I would like to take the opportunity here to wish David Happy Birthday, and also best of luck to everyone who's having SPM soon.. *Damn I feel so old when Im saying this*

Was expecting a hectic scheduled programmes this week, but then it turns out that 2 of my activities has been canceled. With this said, I feel kind of bored staying at home, coz I thought I would be spending the whole week going out everyday =\ Thursday's activity has been canceled due to unforeseen circumstances. Friday's activity isnt confirmed yet. Saturday's steamboat isnt confirmed yet either.

Actually we planned to celebrate Cass's birthday at Friday night or Saturday night, but then she herself aint that free lately, so .. And I feel kind of uneasy and weird, coz it is the first time where we buddiez did not celebrate birthday with each other >< But still, what can we other buddiez do except for wishing her on that very day ? =\

Time flies, and without realizing, it is now Wednesday already. The main problem still remains, where I still havent touch my assignment yet. I have to finish it and pass it up latest on the next tuesday during my class, but then, I still dont feel like start to doing it now ... Omg, what is happening to me? Been skipping classes since before holidays and I dont feel like doing my assignment now. Somehow I need motivation and inspiration, any idea how I can get those anyone? Please enlighten me T_T

Recently I feel that I've lost my way in the road of life. Its like .. well .. its like so meaningless, or perhaps I just havent found anything that is meaningful of doing. Hmm, who willing to be my guardian? =P

You might not know that I've been active again in blogging, you might not even know that I have a blog of my own, but it doesnt matter now, coz it aint important anymore. I dont wish that someday you'll find out about my blog, but I just want to say that.. I miss you =)

Screw me for still not able to let you go =P

Sat the 13th

Was sleepy, so kind of woke up late, but still, it is before noon =D Played a round of DotA, then decided to go out, coz doesnt feel like staying at home =\ Msg up 2 friends and asked them to accompany me for a round of ice skating, coz seriously, it is the only thing where it can cure my emoness >< Went to fetch them after the game and reached pyramid around 430.

It was raining so heavily, lucky I have my jacket in my car, but then the sad thing is, I forgot to bring along the gloves in my car as well ! Sigh, wasted 10 bucks on the gloves >< Its been a while since my last skating, and I miss the feeling so much ! When you're flying on the ice, you can really forget about every single unhappy things, well it least it works for me =D Shannon and Kiki, if you two happens to read about this, please do not feel upset about it, coz I decided to go there at the very last minute =\ Sorry guys..

Then we played til 8pm, and had some food there before I headed to fetch PS . And after fetching everybody that I should be fetching *lolz* , reached maideen around 945 I think. This time's yc session was huge ! Got PS, Hola, Kinz, Justin, Func, Kit, Nigel, David and Me ! Too bad Mei went TaiPing and couldnt join us, else it would be more merrier =D And if StarrY and Edenz happens to see this, dont screw me ya, T_T Had some funny topics to chat about, and had some fun =D

Well, I would like to use this opportunity to thank everyone who took part in the process of curing my eMoness, which includes all the peeps who attended the YC session, thanks everyone =P Its 410am now, and its time to go to bed, til then =)

Friday the 12th

Been busy lately, busy jiwangz-ing of course.. Rofl ~

Went to Time Square on Friday, and somehow, I had a bad morning on that day. Woke up at 830, and I reached there at 955 as been informed. Then Porn Ray called up and he said he gonna late for 20 mins, asked me to meet up with the rest first. The bad thing is, the rest are not even there as well !

Im like a super noob who woke up early in the morning and went there to wait for the rest to show up after at least 1 hour. Seriously my mood was so fuck up when I was waiting at McD alone, sitting there like a noob for more than 1 hour.. I was planning to leave already that time, til someone came up and met up with me, surprised me seriously, rofl~ Well, at least he came, despite of all things that he gone through recently.

Then the rest came half an hour after that. When Porn Ray finally came, I kind of screwed him up, and I feel about it now, sorry Ray, T_T We then went to a cafe nearby TS, the cafe's name is Summer Cafe ! Well, it was my first time visit to that shop, it is more like a tiny Island Cafe or something, where they have a few mini games in their shop. Since it was already noon that time, we started our objective of the day ! After a few rounds of contribution, Justin and I started our mini game, rofl ! And as time goes by, we successfully influenced others to join in ! Yeah, we had fun , everyone had fun too in fact =D After we finished our objective of the day, we then headed to cinema to find a movie to chill everyone out XD We watched the Resident Evil 3 : Extinction !


Well, I dont mind watching it for the second time, coz it is worth watching afterall =D It is cute to see the rest got shocked when Im the one laughing before the creepy stuffs happens XD After the movie ended, we went to the Gasoline to have our dinner before we call it a day. I reached home around 930 and started our "activity" later on.

I think that is all for Friday =D Had fun, thanks for the day guys.

Bad day ...

Seriously , I friggin had enough of this shit already, and I dont wanna take it anymore.

-Why am I the one who needs to fetch peeps to go out everyday and do their things?
-Why am I the one who always need to drive?
-Why am I the one who needs to wait in the car for more than 1 hour ?
-Why am I the one who always need to do every single little thing ?
Why? Why? !! Oh someone please tell me why..

Be it in real life or even in the virtual life, why am I the one? Can someone please enlighten me ? Im so tired of being the one who always need to plan and organize everything for everybody. Im Why are you all so dependent on me ? If you want to know or do something then you should do it yourselves, and let me tell you now, it gets on my nerves when you guys ask me to do things where you can even do it yourselves when I eMo-ing.

And dont take me for granted, coz I dont freaking owe anyone anything ! Except for some certain peoples.

I dont mind driving but in my opinion, driving people around for them to do their own things and the only few things that I can do while waiting for them are to listen to CDs and deleting sms is TOTALLY A WASTE OF TIME. I know I shouldnt be thinking about it this way coz I have to respect them, but I simply cant help it. Its freaking disturbing, annoying and irritating when you "providing your service" every single day.

Then there's this stupid fella who drives a kelisa, he put his signal to the left but he turned right, and afterthat, he stopped his car and reverse, and the next thing I know, his car bang into mine ! I already spamming my hon when he started to reverse, and yet he's like already deaf and blind by keep reversing and hit my car. Retarded typical Malaysian driver !

If anyone knows where can I get a nice loud car hon, please do tell me.

Dont feel like going for the class tomorrow as well, coz Friday is holiday already, must well self declare one class better right? I just hope they wont have any small test or stuffs for tomorrow, else I gonna being GGfied. Sighz, dont have mood to do assignment also, and the prob is, I dont even know when is the dateline to hand up my assignment .. Lolz, what a joke right?

Ahh, I just got to know that my life is quite pathetic as well. Im ball-less in relationship, Im a piece of shit in education, Im a jerk in career, and Im a worker to my family..

Life is just so great, Wheee ~

Its been a while ...

yeah, surely its been a while since my last update, almost 3 months back. Been kind of busy and moodless back then. With this said, it doesnt mean that Im free and happy now since I started blogging back.

Many stuffs happened for the past several weeks, I'll try to make it short tho. Ended my 1st sem in my current course, proceeding with a new sem currently with a new subject, which IMO, a whole lot tougher than the 1st sem. On my birthday, Buddiez invited me to TGIF and celebrated it with me. Had a great night and received lots of presents, thanks a bunch buddiez, I love you guys =D

Today as in 9/10 , couldnt fall asleep the whole night, and it is now 8.21 in the morning. Lots of things went through my mind. Sometimes Im just wondering, who am I to all my friends? But then again, I asked myself, what are friends for? Dont get me wrong, its not that Im not satisfied with all my current friends, I just feel like, Im not much of a friend to others lately. Its like I couldnt able to help my friends when they need me,

Sigh, I dont even know what Im typing right now. To me, it is really damn saddening when I failed to make them feel better when they come to me for comforts or advise. Im lost, confused. I dont know whether should I or shouldnt I offer my help to solve to particular things, but at the same time, I dont wish to question and interfere other people's relationship, because thats not me.

Aaaaa ! I'll see how things go la, I still have a few more days to think about it. All I know is this feeling damn sucky, knowing you can do better but you just couldnt able to.. =\ I need guidance, help me please, T_T I think I should really stop talking about this before I really being emo. Anyway, went to MidValley to watch Resident Evil 3 : The Extinction with StarrY, EdeNz, Shannon, Bombie and Omnimech yesterday. The movie quite roxxor, not bad and worth watching. Later on, went to the Prince Restaurant for dinner, and that sums up my outing yesterday. Last but not least, Im a gawd damn pro procrastinator ! Been delaying my assignment since few weeks ago >< And I dont even feel like goin for class later, sigh, see how la, depends on my mood after I get some rest later .. =D

Thats all for now ..