Time flies, who doesnt agree? Now is already the 30th of Jan, my finals falls on the 20th of Feb, my mid term test 2 falls on the 4th of Feb, I have 4 assignments in total that yet to submit, and yet, Im still here blogging. I should be at least go take a shower and prepare for class since its 5:05 now. Oh wait, thats not it.. I should at least start doing my assignments and get started on my revision !
10 Chapters in 20 days. 2 days a chapter, but that's including CNY ! But then again, its impossible for me to really study during CNY right ? So 10 chapters in 18 days. But then again, since Jedrik is coming back during this CNY, is impossible for not goin to meet up with him right? So perhaps 10 chapters in 17 days. Omg ! 10 chapters in 17 days ! This is sick, this is so sick !
I'd better stop here.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Mao
Does anyone here believe in fate? Coz honestly I do. I believe that our lives are arranged in the hands of god, sometimes we just have to have a little faith in the things we do, and also a little faith in ourselves. I believe choices are there, or even existed only to serve one purpose, which is to allow you to use another alternative way to achieve or gain something that is already been destined.
I believe when we do something, we actually learn something along the way. It doesnt matter whether are you doing the same old thing everyday, but I believe, at the end of the day, you will still learn something new. Perhaps it will be something that you're least expected to come across, or something that you thought you'd learn before, but actually it is something that you missed along the way.
There is this friend that I hang out yesterday, he asked me a question. He asked me: "Dont you feel bored? Coz it seems to me that you always have a reason in everything you're doing" And to be honest, I stunned for a few seconds after he asked me. Not that I dont know the answer to the question, is just that I dont know how to answer him. It really made me wonder, do I always put too much time on thinking til the stage where I afraid to take action anymore? You guys tell me.
I believe when we do something, we actually learn something along the way. It doesnt matter whether are you doing the same old thing everyday, but I believe, at the end of the day, you will still learn something new. Perhaps it will be something that you're least expected to come across, or something that you thought you'd learn before, but actually it is something that you missed along the way.
There is this friend that I hang out yesterday, he asked me a question. He asked me: "Dont you feel bored? Coz it seems to me that you always have a reason in everything you're doing" And to be honest, I stunned for a few seconds after he asked me. Not that I dont know the answer to the question, is just that I dont know how to answer him. It really made me wonder, do I always put too much time on thinking til the stage where I afraid to take action anymore? You guys tell me.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Mao
Was reading my friend's blog, and suddenly, I have this feel of going to beach for some wind and fresh air.. Anyone wanna go for a car ride with me? Pretty please? T__T
Felt damn alone these few days, maybe coz I din login to topaz anymore. My msn is as good as dead, perhaps is because I've blocked more than 10 new peeps in my list.
Things changed, peoples changed. New start over is tough, but its just the beginning.
Felt damn alone these few days, maybe coz I din login to topaz anymore. My msn is as good as dead, perhaps is because I've blocked more than 10 new peeps in my list.
Things changed, peoples changed. New start over is tough, but its just the beginning.
Monday, January 21, 2008
Mao
Why do everyone find it funny when I finally made up my mind to being serious in myself to make some big changes for once? If you guys really care about me, you guys shouldnt be laughing and should care about me instead..
I dont need you guys to know why I made such decision coz I dont expect you guys to know. I may promised you guys to do some things together in the future, but circumstances and situations doesnt allow me to. You may go ahead and think that Im selfish for making such decision, im fine with it and I can live with it.
You know what, I dont really care what and how you guys think about me anymore. And since its my life, I make the rules and I stand up with it. From now on, my life is just gonna be I, myself and me. To those virtual friends out there whom I dint even meet up before, screw yourself and get a life. Stop being a parasite and leech on other people's life.
I dont need you guys to know why I made such decision coz I dont expect you guys to know. I may promised you guys to do some things together in the future, but circumstances and situations doesnt allow me to. You may go ahead and think that Im selfish for making such decision, im fine with it and I can live with it.
You know what, I dont really care what and how you guys think about me anymore. And since its my life, I make the rules and I stand up with it. From now on, my life is just gonna be I, myself and me. To those virtual friends out there whom I dint even meet up before, screw yourself and get a life. Stop being a parasite and leech on other people's life.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Mao
"The mistake you're making is you think I'd care, about you, about the team, about anything.. I lost the only thing I'd care about a long time ago.."
Nicely said.
Edited: Oh by the way, I quoted it from Whitey the coach in One Tree Hill.. I guess he said it on my behalf already =D
Nicely said.
Edited: Oh by the way, I quoted it from Whitey the coach in One Tree Hill.. I guess he said it on my behalf already =D
Monday, January 14, 2008
Its time
I need a change, I want a change, I have to change.
As expected, failed my law and I done miserably bad on my test too. Sigh, I myself aware what is happening, just that I need the power to change. I feel so helpless and hopeless these days. I know I have to change now in order to become a better person in the future, and if I dont change now, I doubt will there be any future for me anymore.
I should focus on the most important thing to me, instead on things that are less important. Now when I look back, Im so stubborn to take care of things that others dont even care much about it. So now its time to move on, since I clearly know what I want and what I need. Thanks Justin for what you've told me over the msn, it really meant a lot to me =) I gotta make the most of what's left, and I gotta do what I feel.
As expected, failed my law and I done miserably bad on my test too. Sigh, I myself aware what is happening, just that I need the power to change. I feel so helpless and hopeless these days. I know I have to change now in order to become a better person in the future, and if I dont change now, I doubt will there be any future for me anymore.
I should focus on the most important thing to me, instead on things that are less important. Now when I look back, Im so stubborn to take care of things that others dont even care much about it. So now its time to move on, since I clearly know what I want and what I need. Thanks Justin for what you've told me over the msn, it really meant a lot to me =) I gotta make the most of what's left, and I gotta do what I feel.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Friends
Laying back my chair, thinking of an answer for a question. What is the ultimate weapon to use against friends? And I finally came up with an answer, which is betrayal and back stab. Can anyone tell me what could be worst than betrayal and back stab?
Honestly, at my own point of view :-
1) Why do you wish to betray someone and want to back stab someone that you know them for years?
2) Before you start using the "weapon", had you ever think who are those that you called friends?
3) Who are those that grew up along with you during your childhood?
4) Who are those that helped you when you need help?
5) Who are those that been there for you when you need someone to accompany you?
6) Does all the memories that you have with them means nothing after all that you guys been through?
Seriously I dont understand why you want to use such "weapons" against them. Do you think you can survive in this world with just your family and your girlfriend? No one is perfect in this world, that is why we need friends to tell us where we done wrong, so that we could improve ourselves and be a better person. Just ask yourself, how many true friends you have in your circle of life? I bet you have lots of friends, but you dont even have one true friend to really being there to share your problems with.
You should look at the mirror and realize how pathetic is your life now. All your friends are leaving you, is just a matter of time when everyone left you alone for real. You might think that you will gain new friends as time pass by, but with your attitude and characteristics, you wont be able to have long lasting friendships. It is still not too late to change now, but I dont think you will realize this anytime soon. Your sight and your judgment are clouded by fog and lust.
Last but not least, there's one quote from Justin's blog which I saw the other day, and I would like to share it with you.
Honestly, at my own point of view :-
1) Why do you wish to betray someone and want to back stab someone that you know them for years?
2) Before you start using the "weapon", had you ever think who are those that you called friends?
3) Who are those that grew up along with you during your childhood?
4) Who are those that helped you when you need help?
5) Who are those that been there for you when you need someone to accompany you?
6) Does all the memories that you have with them means nothing after all that you guys been through?
Seriously I dont understand why you want to use such "weapons" against them. Do you think you can survive in this world with just your family and your girlfriend? No one is perfect in this world, that is why we need friends to tell us where we done wrong, so that we could improve ourselves and be a better person. Just ask yourself, how many true friends you have in your circle of life? I bet you have lots of friends, but you dont even have one true friend to really being there to share your problems with.
You should look at the mirror and realize how pathetic is your life now. All your friends are leaving you, is just a matter of time when everyone left you alone for real. You might think that you will gain new friends as time pass by, but with your attitude and characteristics, you wont be able to have long lasting friendships. It is still not too late to change now, but I dont think you will realize this anytime soon. Your sight and your judgment are clouded by fog and lust.
Last but not least, there's one quote from Justin's blog which I saw the other day, and I would like to share it with you.
Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It's not something you learn from school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything - Muhammad Ali
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Titleless
Weeee ~ Its now 11.37 on a Sunday morning. Today is the last day of my holidays, and after today, I'll be back into busy hectic life again, or rather a normal life I should say. But yet, I still need to finish off at least 2 assignments today, finish off at least 2 tutorials, and need to revise a bit for my test tomorrow. Just imagine, you have a test on the very first class after your holidays, this is so torturing and saddening =\
And on the other hand, at last, I've change my cellphone to a better one ! Was using 6610 since end of 2002 until now, its been at least 5 years. Actually I just borrow the new cellphone from my dad, I did not really buy it myself =( Well, at least I have a better one to use now, that would be the main point ! Im now using Nokia E65 by the way. Still need some time to explore everything and get use to it.
People say new year new resolutions ehh ? Well, for me, I dont hope for more but I just hope that I will do well on my studies and get my ass out to work after graduation. As for the rest of the things in life, no matter what and how it turns out to be, I'll just go with the flow. I guess thats all for now. Adios peeps.
And on the other hand, at last, I've change my cellphone to a better one ! Was using 6610 since end of 2002 until now, its been at least 5 years. Actually I just borrow the new cellphone from my dad, I did not really buy it myself =( Well, at least I have a better one to use now, that would be the main point ! Im now using Nokia E65 by the way. Still need some time to explore everything and get use to it.
People say new year new resolutions ehh ? Well, for me, I dont hope for more but I just hope that I will do well on my studies and get my ass out to work after graduation. As for the rest of the things in life, no matter what and how it turns out to be, I'll just go with the flow. I guess thats all for now. Adios peeps.
Friday, January 4, 2008
eMo
Feel like blogging something , but I have no idea what to write about. Was surfing forums and reading blogs moments ago, then I came across a blog and read something from there. Right after it, lots of things crossing my mind and been thinking a lot now. Eversince I made my blog private, I've sent an invitation to her, and I kept on checking the permission site of this blog, and see whether has she accepted my invitation or not. As days passed by til today, she still hasnt accept it yet, I guess I dont mean anything to her anymore.
Sometimes I just wonder, did I done anything so wrong in the past til I have such treatment from you now. I enjoyed the time we spent together. I enjoyed the time where I went to the place where you at without letting you know. I enjoyed buying things that you like and giving it to you. I enjoyed the time where we had fun together. I enjoyed the time where we would sms each other and share things together. But good times like these didnt last long, hell I wish it did. It was going well all along, and I dont know where it went wrong. You always keeping things to yourself, and you said you're having trouble expressing it out. But to me, I think you just dont want to let it out.
You told everyone that I'm a great friend to you, but then in reality, it doesnt seems like what you stated. Why do you wish to tell the whole world that we're like that when its not? You might think that I'm too selfish over the things that I did to you, but deep down inside you, you knew that I aint like what they think I am. I did nothing wrong as a friend, and now Im getting such treatment from you in return, after all that I done. You once asked me, does everyone deserve a second chance? I said yes, but it seems like you aint giving me any. Friends dont work that way, they will honestly tell each other what they're thinking in their minds, not the other way round.
I just want to know who am I to you, and start to treat me as what you think I am to you. It doesnt really matter anymore, as I know you wont be reading this anyway. Sometimes I just dont understand why do you want to ignore or avoid someone til it hurts so much. If by doing things like this will able to make you happy and smile, even at the expense of hurting me like this, then by all means, you should continue doing this.
Sometimes I just wonder, did I done anything so wrong in the past til I have such treatment from you now. I enjoyed the time we spent together. I enjoyed the time where I went to the place where you at without letting you know. I enjoyed buying things that you like and giving it to you. I enjoyed the time where we had fun together. I enjoyed the time where we would sms each other and share things together. But good times like these didnt last long, hell I wish it did. It was going well all along, and I dont know where it went wrong. You always keeping things to yourself, and you said you're having trouble expressing it out. But to me, I think you just dont want to let it out.
You told everyone that I'm a great friend to you, but then in reality, it doesnt seems like what you stated. Why do you wish to tell the whole world that we're like that when its not? You might think that I'm too selfish over the things that I did to you, but deep down inside you, you knew that I aint like what they think I am. I did nothing wrong as a friend, and now Im getting such treatment from you in return, after all that I done. You once asked me, does everyone deserve a second chance? I said yes, but it seems like you aint giving me any. Friends dont work that way, they will honestly tell each other what they're thinking in their minds, not the other way round.
I just want to know who am I to you, and start to treat me as what you think I am to you. It doesnt really matter anymore, as I know you wont be reading this anyway. Sometimes I just dont understand why do you want to ignore or avoid someone til it hurts so much. If by doing things like this will able to make you happy and smile, even at the expense of hurting me like this, then by all means, you should continue doing this.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
New Year's Eve
Yeah, lets now talk about what happened on new year's eve. I heard there will be a raise in price for the petrol, thats why I went to pump up til full tank before I went countdown. Met up with Fai at the White Coffee Kopitiam Shop around 4pm as planned. Had our tea time there til 4.30pm then I went to pick up Qy and headed off to Sw's house.
Picked up Fai, Sw, Qy around 5pm, and off to The Curve we go! The traffic during that time wasnt really that bad yet, but it was kind of slow moving. Reached The Curve around 530pm I guess. Wanted to park along the road around The Curve at the beginning, but the road was closed for the stages and performance, so ended up parking inside the Cineplex =( Didnt take long to find a parking slot cause that time was still early =D Well, since we arrived early as expected to avoid the traffic, the girls went to walk around the Cineleisure, while the Fai and me went for a few rounds of pool. We booked a table at Fasta @ Pasta Restaurant at Ikano 7.30pm. We reached there early and we finished our dinner around 930pm. Here are some few pics during the dinner =P
I ordered a drink called Peach and Mango Smoothie
That would be the Nub Fai with his Nub look.
The food at Fasta Pasta is quite nice if compare with the night I had at TGIF. We ordered pizza, salad, chicken wings, soups, pasta, spaghetti, drinks and desserts. Guess how much was the bill ? It only cost us 224 bucks ! while my share alone at TGIF already cost 108 bucks ! After our dinner, K and his gf met up with us, and we went to walk around the stage. It was really quite bored that time, considering there is no singer singing at the stage Zzz I can only hear a few M singing some I-donno-what-is-he-singing song and dancing there. This year's NY's eve party at The Curve isnt as nice as last year's party. We practically walked around the place there while we waiting for the time to past. When the clock reaches 12 midnight, there comes to fireworks. Well again, the fireworks isnt as nice as last year's one, roflz.. Here's a pic after the fireworks. =D
I dont know why there's a rubbish bin inside the picture, and I definitely dont know why Im standing next to it in the pic, dont ask me. After the fireworks, we sat there for a while, chilled around, and headed to the car park to take my car after that. Was stuck inside the basement car park for more than 1 hour before we managed to drive ourselves out to the road =.= After dropping off everyone, it was already 2am that time.
Went home to pick up few cans of beers and off to Pandan Indah ! Fetched JoeKeen along the way while heading to the pool center. Met up with the gang (David, Nigel, Chin Choa, Lai, Sally *David's new normal girl friend*) there. After fetching Sally and Lai home, we all went to David's house and started our "Beer Frenzy" ! But then again, only Nigel, Chin Choa and I were the only ones who were drinking, JoeKeen and David went to play RO and PS2 =( Here's a pic before we started our frenzy =D
Yesh, beer frenzy ! We drank til we drunk and we clashed at David's room around 630 in the morning I think. I have to admit that it feels great that night, as in getting drunk, and hadd fun too =D Woke up at 1030 and fetched JoeKeen home, and I reached home around 1130 I think. Well, this sums up the whole of my new year's eve party in one entry.
Picked up Fai, Sw, Qy around 5pm, and off to The Curve we go! The traffic during that time wasnt really that bad yet, but it was kind of slow moving. Reached The Curve around 530pm I guess. Wanted to park along the road around The Curve at the beginning, but the road was closed for the stages and performance, so ended up parking inside the Cineplex =( Didnt take long to find a parking slot cause that time was still early =D Well, since we arrived early as expected to avoid the traffic, the girls went to walk around the Cineleisure, while the Fai and me went for a few rounds of pool. We booked a table at Fasta @ Pasta Restaurant at Ikano 7.30pm. We reached there early and we finished our dinner around 930pm. Here are some few pics during the dinner =P
I ordered a drink called Peach and Mango Smoothie
That would be the Nub Fai with his Nub look.The food at Fasta Pasta is quite nice if compare with the night I had at TGIF. We ordered pizza, salad, chicken wings, soups, pasta, spaghetti, drinks and desserts. Guess how much was the bill ? It only cost us 224 bucks ! while my share alone at TGIF already cost 108 bucks ! After our dinner, K and his gf met up with us, and we went to walk around the stage. It was really quite bored that time, considering there is no singer singing at the stage Zzz I can only hear a few M singing some I-donno-what-is-he-singing song and dancing there. This year's NY's eve party at The Curve isnt as nice as last year's party. We practically walked around the place there while we waiting for the time to past. When the clock reaches 12 midnight, there comes to fireworks. Well again, the fireworks isnt as nice as last year's one, roflz.. Here's a pic after the fireworks. =D
I dont know why there's a rubbish bin inside the picture, and I definitely dont know why Im standing next to it in the pic, dont ask me. After the fireworks, we sat there for a while, chilled around, and headed to the car park to take my car after that. Was stuck inside the basement car park for more than 1 hour before we managed to drive ourselves out to the road =.= After dropping off everyone, it was already 2am that time.
Went home to pick up few cans of beers and off to Pandan Indah ! Fetched JoeKeen along the way while heading to the pool center. Met up with the gang (David, Nigel, Chin Choa, Lai, Sally *David's new normal girl friend*) there. After fetching Sally and Lai home, we all went to David's house and started our "Beer Frenzy" ! But then again, only Nigel, Chin Choa and I were the only ones who were drinking, JoeKeen and David went to play RO and PS2 =( Here's a pic before we started our frenzy =D
Yesh, beer frenzy ! We drank til we drunk and we clashed at David's room around 630 in the morning I think. I have to admit that it feels great that night, as in getting drunk, and hadd fun too =D Woke up at 1030 and fetched JoeKeen home, and I reached home around 1130 I think. Well, this sums up the whole of my new year's eve party in one entry.
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