I shall end the year of 2008 with the following entry.

I have no idea why but I am now addicted to those hard rock songs from Chris Daughtry, Nickelback, Hinder and David Cook. They are just simply, fantastic. Oh, I do like Kate Voelege's songs as well. On the other hand, I find that soft emo (jiwang) songs are not bad too, such as Secondhand Serenade's songs. Oh, I think that's enough for songs now. Those who understands me well would know that I have been a Yes-man for far too long, and one of the resolutions for the year 2009 is learn how to say No. Actually come to think of it, the word 'No' plays a very important part in our daily life. This is because it will make a big difference depends on how you use it.

I have been always thinking, what if I said 'No' on this day and that day, and I would not have ended up like who I am today. But at the end of the day, I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Thus, there will be no point of thinking about those 'what if'(s) anymore. the year of 2008 have became a great year to me. From quit studying going back to study life, from unemployed to being employed, from poor to .. to.. to not that poor, from healthy to unhealthy, etc. The year 2008 has been a changing point of my 'adult stage' life, and it reminds me that I'm not that young anymore as well.

This year is rather a bit unusual, or I should say, rather a bit special. No countdown celebrations, no traffic jam, no watching fireworks anymore. Somehow I feel that it is not that bad to welcome the first day of the new year in such a peaceful way. It is somehow a new way of celebrating new year as well. Speaking of new, I hate the fact that I would still need to work on the very first day of the new year. I personally find that it is so pathetic, so lame, and so stupid to work on the 1st of January, without any extra pay or extra allowance. I don't blame the company, because at the end of the day, business is still business and it has to go on. Like I have said, I just hate the fact.

Another resolution among the resolutions for the year 2009 is, I need and I have to grow up. Yeah, grow up, and go ahead and laugh if you want. Hopefully the year 2009 will be a good year for me. Thank you and goodbye to the year of 2008, and welcome the year of 2009! May god bless everyone. Once again, happy new year!

Adios.
Lucas.

Looking forward to the 2 incoming off days, which is the 25th and also the 26th. Feeling tired and somehow energetic, my body is screaming to go for gym exercises, lol.

With a blink of the eye, and its now the end of December already. Time seriously flies, without you knowing how fast it flew. What I have done or achieved in 2008?

- Semi finished MII papers, with 2 distinctions and an F for the rest (Yeah I know, I'm so pathetic)
- Found a job, thus source of money
- Started smoking
- Been to Genting and clubbing more often compared to last year
- Joined gym (which I have not even dream that I will be joining one anytime in the near future)
- And most of all, felt more alive !

There are still so many things yet to be done before the clock strikes to 12 midnight on the 31st of December 2008. But on top of all things, I would like to take this chance here and now, to make some confessions.

First of all, I'm truly sorry for my words and actions, if any of it that came from me has hurt anyone of you guys out there, especially Justin. Yeah, you know what I'm talking about, I'm sorry yea Jus =) And second of all, thank you so much for everything guys, especially my Buddiez and also Eugene.

2009's resolutions ehh, you may ask. Well, first is to find myself. Second would be none other than finding another job out there and leave my current company. Third and the rest, would be for me to know, soon.

And I love Christmas the most out of all the celebrations throughout the whole year. I like the picture shown below too.


Merry Christmas everyone! I hope you guys will have a lovely and enjoyable Christmas night this year, and many more years to come as well.

Gerry Kennedy: Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you...


I wanna watch "P.S I Love You" the movie !

I have been busy and don't really have the mood to update this blog of mine. But when I have the time to actually update the blog, sometimes I just don't have the mood to do so. Petrol price keep decreasing, recession is coming, salary remains the same, but spending is increasing. Well, this is the reality now, and its pretty suck.

Some people nowadays so getting used to not being understanding. They don't really care how others feel or think where all they care is just about themselves and getting their own things done. We just have to adopt and get use to it too eh? Been working out lately, and its been so darn long since my last work out.

And I darn bloody hate this feeling, where you don't know who you really are and what you really want. Confusion alone is suck enough, and being Not who you are suppose to be even suck big time. Its not easy to be able to find someone you can really talk everything out. I tried, and I found none in the past 23 years in my life. Yeah none, not even those 2 humans that gave you life and the chance to come to earth.

Fear and honesty is one thing, and acceptance is another thing. Not everyone can accept who their friend really is. Guess I gonna stuck in this for a little while more, or maybe few more years? Sometimes I just feel that I am better off left alone or someone should just slap me on my face.

Fornication Under the Consent of the King The World, seriously.